Do you ever have times when you think, "I'm just not really doing anything that matters?" That is a thought in my head that rears it's ugly head on occasion. I used to work part-time outside the house and home school the boys but after Grandma passed away, I basically quit my job that I had worked at on a part-time basis for 16 years. I was just so heartbroken when she died I couldn't hardly think clearly for about a year. Since her death, I have really had to consider what things matter most as I have pondered life and what is meaningful and how I spend my time. I have come to realize that we are exactly where we are supposed to be on any given day, if we are following Abba. His plan is perfect and His timing in always right. So, I don't have to think I am supposed to be someplace else, doing some other job because He has brought me to "my high place" for today. That is a real revelation...walking in that revelation on a daily basis is another matter.
I have been given trust over a husband, two boys (three really but my oldest is married now) and now I have the honor and blessing to see my children's children and care for them too while there Mama and Daddy are working. Is there more than this? Is there a higher blessing in this life? It is all my heart desires...and yet, I still have my moments when I hear that voice that says, "You just aren't doing anything that matters, you should be out there occupying your time with (I don't know what...anything that's meaningful right?) saving the world. Then I wake up again and remember, if I weren't doing what I'm doing...someone else would be doing it because someone has to do it! Guess what? I've been appointed, chosen even called to bring the skill Abba has placed in my heart (that is to be a keeper of my home and a teacher of my children, a guide, a protector, a wife and all the other things Abba has placed on me to desire to do) so that I am building my part of His house!!! (That's the general lesson in this weeks Torah portion in Ex. 35!!) That is so amazing to me. To think that Abba places desires on us that serve the purpose that we are created for. The important thing is to let others walk in the purpose that they were created for and not have the attitude that everyone should be doing what your doing...That is Abba's decision, not mine. So, I encourage you to consider what "desire" is within your heart to fulfill for His purpose and let your prayer be to ask Him to help you get to your high places and let you help others get to theirs.
Anywho, I wrote this rough draft up last evening not really knowing where I was going with it entirely but today I found this You Tube video from Aish that said it very well. I hope, if you have time, you will take just a few minutes to watch this little uplifting video. It's message is good... and I hope that no matter where your high places are, whether they are found in great recognition or quite servitude, that you are able to find the joy in being in "the way" chosen for you today.
Have a blessed day of preparation!