I miss you Grandma.
Today it's been 3 years since you've been gone. The time has somehow seemed to go quickly. I think about you often and I'm sad that you're not here. I'm sad that you didn't get to meet Gracie Elizabeth who just turned 1 a few days ago, you would of loved watching her run around playing. I'm sad you're not here to talk to and ask questions to so that you could remind me of stories about you and Grandpa and me. I'm just sad that you can't be here with me.
I sat here yesterday and I thought about you. I thought about how after Mom left Dad when I was just a baby, Dad got a call that Mom couldn't take care of me and how you and my Dad jumped into the car and drove to Kansas City to get me and bring me home. I thought about how you told me that you prayed for a little girl but you couldn't have any more children so God gave me to you to raise. I thought about how much I knew you and Grandpa loved me...I cried.
I thought about how blessed I was to have people in my life who loved me as much as you and Grandpa and I was so thankful and in awe of the way YHWH has taken care of me. It's a long story, really, but I look back and all the pieces of my life's puzzle have been carefully and loving laid in place by Abba and you were one of the main pieces of that puzzle. Your memory is woven into the fabric of my soul, I cannot be separated from you.
1Sam. 20:42 ...Go in peace, forasmuch as we have sworn both of us in the name of the LORD, saying, The LORD be between me and thee, and between my seed and thy seed for ever...
While I'm sad that you can't be here with me, I am thankful. I am thankful that you're not in pain any more and that you're not lonely now. I'm thankful that you don't have to miss Grandpa any more. I am thankful for your life and for the innumerable things that because of you, I now understand. I'm thankful for the amazing love you gave me even when I so often didn't deserve it. I'm thankful that you loved my kids as much as you loved me. I'm thankful that you were my Grandma. I'm thankful for things about you that I really can't even express.
Goodbye...Only For a Time
With the few short words that I have written above, I will leave you now but it is only for a short time that I do because you'll always be in my heart. If I had no hope of being in your presence again, I would be broken. That hope that we have been given is a light to me. It flickers off in the distance but it's not so far that I cannot see it.
John 1:5 And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.
In life, you surely were the light of Abba's love to me. I learned of the love that He had for me through the love you gave. Truly.
To my Grandma, Elizabeth Ann, I love you and I miss you. Thank you for everything...everything.
Thank you Abba for her.